And tonight when we were leaving at closing time the last song to play was “Crossroads” (Bone Thugs N Harmony) and it was so ironic for me because even though the words weren’t spoken that’s exactly where we were at.  Last fall I had felt this energy shift and change coming on before it could be named and I would just cry and cry at random.  Because I’m sentimental like that.  Because I could feel the tides of life start to change before the change came.  So I mourned it alone, the only one knowing what was ahead.  So tonight, for a final time, it all seemed “normal” as though there would be many more nights like this but there would not be. Not that I make up the rules.  But I am wise enough to have the vision for when things change.  When life prepares for the Next.  And I think of the lost romantic opportunities with the soul mate connections that are not going to happen in this lifetime.  And the betrayal of “friends” in regards to such who think I don’t “know” but who underestimate the power of my intuition.  And I play along as though I’m naive though I’m not.

My silence is not an accident.  Tonight I said goodbye standing at the crossroads, honoring the change of life Fate has cast.  

I do not bother fighting life anymore but now stand ready for the next thing.  As the Bible states (and later quoted by George Harrison) all things must pass.  Your best bet is to be like water and just let them do so. 

“And I’m gonna miss everybody”