When you’re moving through human-land there will be many different systems and structures in place to keep you assembled like a good little cog on a wheel.  Women especially experience this conformity.  If you are entrenched on social media you will be super sucked into this. What this requires you to do is always be on.

Being on means finding the right man. Not letting too many days pass until you get some.  Wearing the right thing, saying the right thing, looking the accepted way which usually includes body parts like the stomach and thighs, saying the right thing to be cute but not controversial or too smart for fear of being too powerful and making others look small, especially if they are the opposite sex.

But sometimes in life you have to fall off the proverbial horse.  Your heart has to break so much so that you have to go through a dark night of the soul period and not have sex for a society-acceptable period of time, even years.  Even in the prime of your life when you should be riding the highest as we value the maiden phase of woman the most and we expect that from women during this era. They should be the most ‘on’ by conventional wisdom. 

But in reality you have to ask dumb questions and not be on the up and up. You have to be off.  Not sharing and not winning.  Not getting it. Not fitting in. Not having the experience. This is being off. And it is a necessary cycle of life.  You actually have to have this. Because Earth is a planet of contradiction. Light vs dark. Right vs wrong. Tension vs resolution.  Each cycle brings you from one side to the next.  This is how the soul learns. You are here to learn. You have to let go and let this happen.  You can’t always be on and that’s perfectly fine as that’s how this whole thing is designed.  You need your seasons as they each serve a purpose and even though we have computers with internet and cameras with us at all times in the form of smartphones and tablets and thus everyone is watching you’re allowed to be off and unwatchable and unlike able.  You can’t be fully on until you are off actually.  Off can mean the unknown and the dark.  That’s your time. Own that shit. You’re never really going to fall.  You will make it.  This whole thing is designed for such, promise.